I think the only thing routine in my life is my morning
coffee- and I have even shaken that up a time or 2 giving it up for Lent. I don't feed my animals at the same time everyday, I don't do laundry or clean my house on the same day every week...The point
I am making is that I love when things change, I can do anything that I need to
do if required, I am adaptable, but I am not a huge fan of routine, I like spontaneity, I like accommodating
last minute changes, I crave new things, new experiences and meeting new
people!
When the market was horrible and I took a 3 year job that
required my same day punch in and out… I got stir crazy, I was unhappy sitting
in the same desk and I did everything I could think of to go back to my unpredictable,
every changing world of Real Estate and I haven’t looked back. In a nutshell I probably
would have been diagnosed with ADHD as a child- but as an adult I can use it to
my benefit. I can move from one project to the next and back and I always seem to get things done on time no matter if I procrastinate. I love to be busy, I love challenges and I am not a routine person. I don't sit still for very long very well, I am honestly shocked that I can enjoy a whole movie at one time. I don't have any particular tv series I follow, I change my hair color often, and when I try something new and get bored I move on without hesitation. Probably why I don’t stick to any work out or eating plans… I get bored,
EASILY! That is why real estate is definitely right for me… not predicable,
always changing, every situation is different, even situations that are similar have different outcomes- I love balancing different deals, different people and different circumstances. I am constantly working with different
personalities! I LOVE it, it keeps me on my toes and I am still helping people, which I truly believe is what I am called to do, Serve Others!
So this year, when I didn’t have a role as a PTA board
member anymore, I didn’t have any deadlines to meet, I didn’t have the
commitment to get things ready for the beginning of school, or be there to sell
things at Meet the Teacher or the first day of school meet and greet… I was not
prepared or motivated to get started and honestly didn't even go to meet the teacher, School gives me anxiety! Contrary to
popular belief, even though I did well in school somewhat because I was smart
and somewhat because the stuff I didn’t get I made a point to do well so I didn’t
disappoint myself. School gives me anxiety for my kid as well.
Every year I hear the moms and parents talk about how they
can’t wait until their kids go back to school, some are pulling their hair out
even before our already short summer is over. I am over here praying that the
summer isn’t over, I hate the routine. I love having my kid home! The anxiety of getting Paxton up on
time, having to get him to school on time, stressing over getting him to brush
his teeth, what is for breakfast, what is for lunch and to get his shoes on and
making it out the door without forgetting something- and if I have an appointment
early getting myself ready, the animals fed and doing things around the house
if need be. Knowing I only have so many hours before he has to be picked back
up and trying to fit everything in between. Finding somewhere for him to go if I won't make it home It totally stresses me out! Some of you are
probably thinking I am a crazy person, but I would rather have him home and
take him with me wherever I need to go, which most of the time I can.
75% of my life is mostly made up of me making my own
schedule, being flexible for clients, having to change things to accommodate others
and not really sticking to a set schedule…Believe me, I work hard and most
people don’t even see what goes into real estate behind the scenes- but a lot
of it I can do when I want, where I want which doesn’t work for everyone but it
works for me. So yes, I am that mom that gets anxiety when I must go back to a
routine like my kid going back to school…
I know he already hates school and trying to shelter him from
my anxiety really doesn’t work. I am not good at hiding my emotions and
sometimes my lack of excitement for routine and his resistance to wanting to go
to school clash and cause unwarranted arguments, and maybe even yelling before
school! This sucks and just causes more anxiety!
This school year my goal will be to take my mom’s advise of
taking 3 deep breaths before reacting, trying to remain calm that I am not
going to get my kid to like school no matter how hard I try to get him to see
the value, so I may as well just stress less, go with the morning flow and find
the positive in my struggles and my anxiety of being late or running behind,
because in 5 years we have never been
late even once.
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