I set my alarm for 4:00 AM with every intent to get a bunch of odds and ends tasks done before my household appeared from their rooms. Waking up around 2:30 and not being able to go back to sleep right away ( I should have just gotten up right then!) of course when I did drift back off and the alarm went off at 4:00 I didn't jump out of bed with enthusiasm for my day... no, I snoozed until I drug myself from bed at 5:00 AM. Losing a whole hour of intended work... As the coffee was making I entered a new listing in the MLS and while the pictures were uploading I clicked on FB to see what was up. Immediately staring at me was a picture of my mom and Paxton from 2014 that I posted with a quote talking about being focused on today. I had no idea at that time that our battle with her cancer would be so short lived, my thoughts of 3-5 years turned into 6 months and she was gone. Being a little teary-eyed I chose to share my memory, I think we do this to cope in a way, if we put it out there, we are not necessarily trying to get sympathy we are just trying to grieve, or deal or cope with what we have had to go through... In a way I wanted to hate facebook for the memory, but in a way I am glad that it was intended to show up for today.
When the house awoke and Paxton seemed a little on the whiny side my patience wasn't so great. I can almost say that is the first thing that can turn my mood around negatively is whining and complaining. When I got dressed to take Paxton to school I purposely chose my "breath" tee-shirt to remind myself to stay calm and slow down, to be intentional and to take it all in. Live for today, cause truly that is all we are promised. When I dropped him off at school, another mother met me in the hall wearing exactly the same shirt, which totally made us smile! Thanks Bethany! When I got home to pick up from the morning, work out and get ready to go out and about for the day before having to pick Paxton up from early release at 1:00 and shoving it all in... I flipped from Sponge Bob to the Message music station which is what I listen to when I work from home. One of my favorite songs,
Just Breath by Johnny Diaz was playing at that exact moment. Really? How ironic? Or how purposeful? The message is what I make of it. This is a true reminder of my faith that I am blessed, that today is a day to embrace life and the moment. For all of you that need to be reminded, rest and relax in the Lord, go to HIM all you who are weak and weary and live in the moment, enjoy your blessings and
just breath.
"Breathe" Johnny Diaz
Alarm clock screaming bare feet hit the floor
It’s off to the races everybody out the door
I’m feeling like I’m falling behind, it’s a crazy life
Ninety miles an hour going fast as I can
Trying to push a little harder trying to get the upper hand
So much to do in so little time, it’s a crazy life
It’s ready, set, go it’s another wild day
When the stress is on the rise in my heart I feel you say just
Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need
Is to just breathe
Third cup of joe just to get me through the day
Want to make the most of time but I feel it slip away
I wonder if there’s something more to this crazy life
I’m busy, busy, busy, and it’s no surprise to see
That I only have time for me, me, me
There’s gotta be something more to this crazy life
I’m hanging on tight to another wild day
When it starts to fall apart in my heart I hear you say just
Breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need
Is to take it in fill your lungs
The peace of God that overcomes
Just breathe
So let your weary spirit rest
Lay down what’s good and find what’s best
Just breathe
Just breathe, just breathe
Come and rest at my feet
And be, just be
Chaos calls but all you really need
Is to just breathe
Just breathe
