do you want to scream

Do you ever just really want to scream "why me, Lord" or any variation there of! Can the little frustrations of the day spiral you into that grumpy, leave me alone, can I wake up and start all over mood? A friend and I were talking yesterday and it seems that often times these little things don't seem so bad when they are dispensed over time, dropping here and there periodically. However when you have a multitude of otherwise minimal things happen to you in the course of a day or even spread over a week, sometimes you get a tad bit overwhelmed and can't help but feel that frustration explode through you, not letting anything stand in its way. Sometimes your attitude can really affect how you treat other people. Even if it isn't in your slightest intention to cause someone else to hurt. Sometimes however I think we get so overwhelmed by the laundry list of little frustrations in a week/day etc, that we often don't even see what is going to happen in our path along the way.
I am not proud of any harsh words or lashing out that I may do, none of us I am sure are. However, none of us are perfect, all of us could use a little, maybe even a lot of improving, and we hope that those who get bumped along on our rampage, are forgiving, loving understanding and know that the way we act sometimes happens to the best of us.
Remember often and remind yourself, that it is best to treat people the way they want to be treated, not the way you want to be treated sometimes.

This was my daily devotional today:
We should learn to trust God’s timing, but we are sorely tempted to do otherwise. Why? Because we humans are usually anxious for things to happen sooner rather than later, but God knows better. God has created a world that unfolds according to His own timetable, not ours- thank goodness! We mortals would make a terrible mess of things. God does not. His plan does not always happen in the way we would like or at the time of our choosing. But our task is to wait patiently and never lose hope. In the words of Elisabeth Elliot, “We must learn to move according to the timetable of the Timeless One, and to be at peace.” That’s the advice worth following today, tomorrow, and every day.

God’s delays and His ways can be confusing because the process God uses to accomplish His will can go against human logic and common sense. – Anne Graham Lotz

I have decided that I am going to do my part and then put it in someone else's hands. If it is meant for me it will happen. I will not be disappointed if I try my best, give it my all and 100% dedication.

opportunity

Have you ever been searching for an opportunity to do something that you have always wanted? A door to open and someone to say "hey this is what you've been searching for." "Come and get it." I think many of us on a day-to-day basis are looking for that sign, that opportunity to knock us over the head and say "look at me, look at me." Your future destiny knocking at your door.
Often times I think as we are searching for that something we often fail to see the something that is searching for us because we are too busy looking behind or ahead to see what is right in front of us. Helen Keller put it best, "When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."We are so busy living in the past or searching for the future that the present moment passes us by and we lose out on now.
As I continue to develop my competencies at my current job and in my life, I am finding ways and seeing how paying attention to the now instead of how I react to the past or worry about the future is really starting to help me be conscience of the present and give my commitment to the task or situation at hand. In turn this allows me to have more control over the situation and better equip to handle it. Relieving me just a little bit from my stress and anxieties caused by living in the past or the future.
An excerpt from one of my favorite books Mr. Everett's Secret, reads: Before you climb the ladder of success, be sure you have it set against the right wall.
This is amazingly true, you may be good at a lot of things, you may not sure what you are searching for and therefore you will stumble upon a lot of false hopes trying to find the thing that is suited for you. Stick to what you are good at, be confident in what you know, don't be afraid to take a leap or make a change but be sure it is what you want first.

believe in yourself

How often do we let ourselves think that we can't do something, that we aren't good enough or we don't deserve it. This is truly an every day occurrence in a lot of situations we come across. How quick we are to get defensive when someone criticizes what we are doing, or makes a suggestion for a better way. In our own way we believe what we are doing is right, we are doing what we have always done, or working for the better. Is it really that shocking that we tend to close up, to shut down to feel we are a lesser being, we someone makes us feel smaller than we think of our self? Whether it be at home, at work, with a friend, somehow, someway, each day we experience some sort of criticism from ourselves or someone else, that draws us a little further away from that dream, that hope that we had of our own form of success. When instances like these happen repeatedly we often lose faith in our own ability to accomplish something. It is hard to defeat someone who has taken up residence inside your head.

We often give up that hope that faith that we do not see yet somehow at some point thought we could reach. No matter your dream, if you think it possible you can make it possible. Successful people pay more attention to their own goals and visions than the opinions of others around them.

"People become really quite remarkable when they start thinking that they can do things. When they believe in themselves they have the first secret of success."

~ Norman Vincent Peale ~

Tonight I am thankful for my inner cheerleader, my will for success, my drive, my ambition, my family, their support, my desire to help others, my faith and my spirit. May tomorrow bring many blessings and may I prosper and grow into the person I knew I could always be.

ME

I think I am back, I think that I am here to stay. I have gotten some great advise over the past few weeks on how to rediscover myself, be myself and go with the flow. I am now more prepared to live my dreams, don't let my obstacles get in the way, enjoy what I am doing while I am doing it, still dream big, know that I am destined to do great things, be a positive spirit for others, share my sunshine and give back and pay forward. I am not sure that I will always stay here, but I am certainly going to try. I am ME, I believe in ME, there is no one out there exactly like ME, I need to accept ME, embrace ME and be ME.

"Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world."

Harriet Tubman
1822-1913, Abolitionist