I did it!

Ah.. about time to go to bed only 5.5 hours til I need to be awake! The days of this are coming to a CLOSE. When one door closes - another one opens,  or you shut it to make room for one to open! LOL!  I had a great relaxing weekend, spent time with family and friends. Took in the beauty of everything. Back to the hectic work week and about 7 clients pulling me in different directions, did I mention Paxton still has 1 week left of swim lessons every night as well, oh my! Lots of relief today as I told my full time position for the last 3 years that I was leaving to pursue other things.  Woo Hoo!  I think I can, I know I can and I will make this happen. When you are driven, you have passion and truly believe in something and want it bad enough you can make it happen. I think that is one of the reasons that even though I tried school several times (since it was practically free to me for working there) that I just couldn't do it. I wasn't driven or passionate enough about that extra piece of paper. Could I do it yes, but do I need it no. It doesn't define who I am. Helping people find houses, getting challenged on a daily basis and writing are my passion for sure, along with my family! Truly the biggest blessing in my life that I need to support, love and enjoy life with.  I know I can do this. I have given up my biggest road block and I am ready to dive in with zest! I will definitely still work hard, I want the best for my family but the ties that bind will be lifted and I can be set free. Here is to June 27th and a new and improved me!

untagging myself

So I am still at that point where I struggle with my weight, I eat when I am happy, I eat when I am sad, I eat when I am stressed, geez, I guess I just love to eat. Time doesn't permit as much working out as I would like and I just can't tell myself no. Things taste so good as they are going in my mouth and the look and smell sometimes you just can't resist. I have never really been the person who doesn't have time to eat, I have been the person who doesn't have time to eat so she eats all the wrong things, or doesn't eat and then eats whatever looks good or is lying around. I always do better when I can take the time to make my food ahead of time or portion it out. I can stick to a specific diet like the HCG diet for 30 days knowing it is 30 days, but somehow haven't mastered the idea of eating healthy every day, counting calories and just plain being conscious of what I am doing. I love healthy foods but they are just not as convenient as the not so healthy counterparts.
I think that I am going to take it one day at a time, give my value to the who I am and where I am at this moment in time, love myself and make peace with where I am at at each moment in time, remind myself on a daily basis that nothing tastes as good as skinny feels and stop being so critical of the way I look and concentrate more on being grateful for the things I have, the things I like about myself. I think I mentioned in an early post that I bought a gratitude journal to keep in my purse, I am going to try and remember that every time I want to put something in my mouth, I get stressed or discourage and want to turn to food, to grab my little book and write instead. Then I can be less critical about the way I look in a picture, a snapshot or photo because I know that is how I look at the moment in time.

Whoever said going after your dream would be easy! I don't anticipate it to be, would I like it to be? Yes, sometimes, but what would life be like if not for a challenge. I am ready and eager to make this happen, to work my butt off and be the product of my hard work, passion, dedication and faith. Believe, believe, believe that is my favorite saying if you know me well enough. I have numerous sayings, quotes, pictures, frames etc throughout my house with this saying.. just trying to figure out where I want to put the tattoo, my latest fav spot is the side of my foot, saw a cute tat on pinterest the other night. Anyway, yes I am making the leap and I can't wait to talk about it to everyone. Just about another week and I will be safe to say where my life is leading me and what lies before me. It took a little convincing, a lot of faith a great written down business plan and did I mention passion/motivation... Those are huge factors that contribute to ones success. My director at my current job told me today that if you truly believe in the mission and vision of whatever organization you are working for it will come natural, people will be receptive to what you are telling them, you will be believable, credible and it definitely will add value to all you come in contact with. I truly believe that she is right! You have to believe in yourself, never let anyone tell you you can't, especially you. Your confidence in your self and ability can make or break you.

No mountain is too tall if your first step is belief. ~Anonymous~

"If you don't design your own life plan, chances are you'll fall into someone else's plan. And guess what they have planned for you? Not much." ~Jim Rohn
If you don't build your dream, someone will hire you to help build theirs. - Tony Gaskins